WHILE IN WAIT

While In Wait

While in wait

I succumbed

This delay

Has no relay

I’m at the end of my road

What is lost can’t be found

My life was defined in papers

I‘ve lost them now

What I’ll do from hereon

I have no clue

What future means to me

Has turned all too blue

I am witness to my crimes

My mind plays games

That I cannot define

All is lost for now

My mind has sunk down low

Aghast I am, I know

But what can I do?

How can I go through?

What will fate have for me?

Regaining my conscious

I will clearly see

What I had is lost now

My mind is willing to accept

This motion that has so occurred

Is my mind scared or is it just fair?

Does it somehow know that I don’t belong?

What I’ve learnt breaking my back

What I’ve earned pushing people back

I’ve stepped over the fallen

Not cared to care for a moment

My life was about me

But now I feel, I couldn’t see

I’ve been dreaming all day and night

My mysterious lifestyle, is just a scheme

When I’m grown, I’ll be a bum

I’ve always known that

Is this fate’s plan in fruition?

Is this the final statement?

I’ve argued with myself

I’ve calmed myself

This was the only reason

That I’ve ever given

I’m lost now

In my own scum

I’m a leech

Too long I’ve lived

Incapable of living

On my own

I have grown

Whilst people moan

Remember to die

In the instance of truth

Now that I know

Can I still withdraw?

Question I’ve been scared to ask

I’m asking to myself now

My careless life, I’ve lived till now

Life came beckoning, I withdrew

What I’ve done can’t be forgiven

What I’ve become, is something else

What is the truth, has finally come out

My life has grown too low, I’m scum